blindhurt (blindhurt) wrote in howecametobe,
blindhurt
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My story.

I'm looking for advice, support, whatever I can get. It's a long one, so please be patient.

Here we go:

Where to start?
I was in a 9 and 1/2 year real life relationship. We stayed together for comfort. We haven't slept in the same bed for well over a year, and had sex in I don't know how long. Our arguments were awful and destructive. Around October, I decided things were bad. Especially when he told me I was holding him back. Whatever, it was along painful journey, but we've both agreed it's for the best. We're very good friends now.

That out of the way...here's more.

Around January or so, I started playing an online rpg. Yeah, I know, geek gamer chick, whatever. It was fun. Really fun. Met a good friend there. Our characters hooked up, and we became great friends. We spent hours and hours playing and talking. We spilled our guts to each other, our secrets, everything. It was totally friendly and lovely. He even gave me some advice on how to possibly fix my relationship etc. We talked about a million things, his issues, my issues. I felt myself getting closer to him...he went away for a weekend for his sister's birthday. When he came back, he told me he had feelings for me. So we started out cautiously...carefully. It's been wonderful. We connect so well...he's fantastic.

So, he's coming to visit in August. For two weeks. He lives in the UK. I live in the US. I'm scared. We've spoken voice, exchanged pictures, everything. I'm still afraid.


So, there it is.
Wish me luck. :)

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